MCM day :4

"gratitude is the attitude"

Thank you I have so much to be grateful for and I feel so blessed.
The ability to know that peace and joy are choices that I can make is such a gift.
Today I struggled a little, but I travel much lighter knowing that just because I think or feel a certain way doesn't make it true.

May Cause Miracles: Day 3

"Love did not create this"

today's practice produced more shifts in how I view the world, more and more I am moving from I am a victim of the world to I am the creator of the world. I had fears come up and instead of reacting to them and saying poor me I Begin to see that I put them there and The situation I was fearful about was only an idea, an idea that could be look at another way, with love.

May cause Miracles: day 2

Day two "I am willing to see this differently
                 "I am willing to see Love"

This is an amazing practice to continue to remember this truth, because The world comes from our thoughts. Mind is the cause and the world of experience is the effect and most of this have had this ass backwards all our life, we try to change our world of experience thinking this will bring peace to our mind. When I Practice this I see more and more in my daily experience that I can choose peace rather then the dis - ease that I am currently experiencing.

May Cause Miracles Day one

 "I am willing to witness my fear" was very powerful exercise I was more focused than ever on how I chose fear and what that looks like.  When you’re not watching for it,  it can sneak up on you. The acronym for fear is "false events appearing real" so when fear crops up I ask myself what’s the false story that I believe to be true? The course is clear that "nothing real can be threatened" so when I'm afraid I'm in an illusionary would of my own making. The evening exercise had me look at the fact that My selfishness triggers my fear and all my fears are self - centered I.e.: losing what I have, Not getting what I want, or fear of what others think of me. My fear can only apply to you if it somehow affects me. When I'm afraid I forget that there is this peace inside that is always there, But it gets covered over with all the lies I start telling myself about the world I have created. Fear can also be "fuck everything and run." I run from the peace that is my natural state and I look for comfort in people places and things that can never really give it to me. After doing the meditation I reflected on how fearful I am about the judgments of others but was reminded that no matter what your perception of me is or my perception of you is it will never come close to the absolute perfection that is beyond what we could ever conceive of. No one can really Judge you because they don’t even have a clue who they are and all they are doing is projecting this ignorance onto others. The truth is there is no others outside of what your mind has decided there are.

 

Live and learn from fools and from sages

Over the past 20 years now I have been on the so called "spiritual path" and while there is no doubt much good has come of it, up until recently I used it to perpetuate a certain kind of violence on my self. I could use meditation or any number of practices to beat the shit out of myself if I forgot to do it or I wasn't advanced enough. Attending Spiritual groups is great but I remember lots of guilt being projected onto me for not going to enough meetings or anything I wasn't doing right. Somehow we can take a positive thing and use it as a weapon to feel like shit and to project guilt and shame onto others. Someone a few days ago was speaking to me about feeling bad about their prayer life because they didn't feel Gods presence. So the very thing we needed to help us, becomes another bat we use to beat it into our heads they we aren't good enough. The most "advanced" people I know aren't doing everything perfect, they don't claim to be enlightened, What they are very good at is Forgiving themselves when they screw up and forgiving others when they screw up which is the choice for love over fear. I feel as a byproduct of this we become more peaceful and have a better life. When we are striving to become better and better and never satisfied with ourselves we are never satisfied with others and we live in a prison of self-improvement. Start from the fact that you are already a whole, complete, and a perfect child of god who will fall down But you are wholly loved and forgiven and your only function is to love and to forgive.So if your making any New Years resolutions and you fall short, love and forgive yourself anyway, be kind and get back on track. Know for a fact that mistakes will be made and your spiritual practice is to forgive and when you forget to forgive forgive yourself for that too.


Happy Holidays!!

freedom

"There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." - Hamlet

Freedom From the bondage of self is possible through radical forgiveness. We must understand that problems of guilt, shame, remorse, resentment, and fear are of our own making and that we are totally and completely loved and forgiven in order to be free. We put the unconscious guilt in ourselves when we, just like the prodigal son left our fathers Kingdom to go out on our own. What we do with this Guilt is project it onto others and say “they’re the guilty ones, not me!! It’s them!!”  The Blame game starts and we build a prison for ourselves that we don’t know how to break free from. I notice this even in the smallest of ways, I could drop something and I immediately look around for someone else to blame. The course in Miracles says “there is no hierarchy of illusions” so it doesn’t matter if we are talking about a minor situation or a major disaster the problem and solution are the same. Being on a spiritual path many of us have used it as a way of beating the shit out of ourselves because we think it’s about being perfect when what needs to be realized is it’s about perfect being which our natural state already is.  Only our judgmental thoughts about how things are supposed to be come in and create misery.  The truth is we will continue to screw up and everyone else will continue to screw up but what can improve is our ability to forgive ourselves and others. When we have unreasonable expectations for ourselves usually we have them for others too.  Realize you are perfect being and you are love itself, and it’s the human condition to make mistakes. If you want to remove Guilt and resentment from your life start by practicing forgiveness for yourself.   

living the teaching

see them as forgiven or you will never see this for yourself 

see them as love because that is what you are

see them as infinite potential or you will never see yours

help them to know the love of being and you will travel lighter

for you are the source of it all.